So here I am sitting on the couch, kids in bed. Trevor out doing...well...doing church stuff. Tomorrow he has a quick trip to Calgary. He was actually supposed to be in High River on monday but due to the flooding it was moved back a couple of days. His meeting might even be moved to the airport if the offices aren't able to be occupied yet. So I know he had no control over this meeting, but this would make it par for the coarse...for missing my Birthday. I think as long as we have been married he has missed almost every single one, unless it was on a sunday. But it really isn't a big deal to me... no really honestly it isn't. I know he would be home if he could have the choice. So tomorrow... I turn 40.
People ask how I feel about hitting this mile stone. My response is" I don't feel 40". And it is really just a number, it really is how you feel. Now I am not saying I go around trying to act and look like a 25 year old. And kids really do keep you young. But I really don't feel 40.
When I really sit and think. I wonder: Is this mid life for me? Is this the best health I will ever be? Does everything go downhill from here? Sheesh, that's enough to depress anyone if you sit and think long enough.
Here is where I pause and shake those thoughts out of my head. I have to say my 30's were awesome. Way better than my 20's. I am so much more sure of myself. I still am a very emotional person and cry very easily. But I have learned to pick and choose what matters. I am way more secure in who I am and my place in this big world. I wade though all the crap this world throws in your path and pick out the things that really matter to me and my family. I am who I am. And it is a good thing we are all different.
I think my 20's would have been kick ass if I knew then what I know now. But I had to go through life to learn what I know now.
I am married to THE most awesome guy there is. We have grown as a couple in the last 19 years. Life has thrown crap in our way and we just keep using it as fertilizer to grow more. We have needed each other in different times and at the same time. I have 2 healthy kids whom I couldn't love more. They light up my life and keep a person honest. Cause they will tell their whole class what's going on in your life.
So there you have it. I love my life. All though the calendar may say a number, I'm not really paying close attention to it. I will celebrate another year on this crazy ride called my life.
6 comments:
Great post Melanie - love what you said about turning crap into fertilizer!! Oh and the part about your kids telling the class about your life, had to laugh out loud! Happy Birthday dear friend♥
Happy birthday friend! I hope your day is wonderful and that Trevor's meeting goes well! Blessings and love to you!
Melanie,
Happy happy 40th. It is just a number and for many, like you, it means you have enough maturity to figure out how you function best.
To the health comment - for the most part you control that by making good choices and you seem to do that so stay active and eat well and you will have many more years.
You are right that children keep us young. Ron's mom is 92 (he is 54 so you do the math) and she credits her surprise with keeping them very active when most are slowing down. Now I'm not advocating more children just that the more we do the more we can do and once you start slowing down it reverses to the less you do the less you can do. So go hard all the way. Have fun at breakfast with your children, do something fun with a friend for lunch and find some family for supper. Trevor will be home soon enough to help you celebrate and maybe he will bring you something special!
Best wishes.
Take care,
Bernie
Happy Birthday Melanie... Have a fantastic day!
Hi Melanie,
Happy Birthday!! I know you will have a good day because you have a wonderful perspective on life.
When I realized you were going to talk about turning 40 I was curious where you were going to go with it. SO many people, women especially, get stressed over that number and some people go a little loopy when they realize they're 40. I was bummed for a few minutes and then did something along the lines of you and said, it's just a number, who cares. I too don't feel 40. I walk around the high school and think, it wasn't that long ago...and then I remember that I'm in those halls because Bryan is there - puts it in a little more perspective but still doesn't bother me.
Just like all the white hairs on my head, each year has meant progress, blessings, experiences that grow us and make us who we are. I consider it a privilege to be the age I am every year. It means I've gotten to see my kids grow one more year, spend one more year with Gerald and the rest of family and friends. I wish more people could/would realize what you and I know. It makes life so much better. :)
Have a super great day today and when you will celebrate when Trevor's home again...and all the days in between, etc. :)
-Michelle Buhler
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