Common words

Home.
Family.
Doctors.
Clutter.
Food.

These words are pretty familiar to all of us. Alone, they look...well...common. We all deal with them  in our own way. I think every single person deals with them in some form. In my life right now, let me break these down a little bit.

Home. I have one. I am extremely blessed. It is often filled with laughter, friends, kids and a warm fire place. There are a lot of unfinished things in it right now. (Don't take this as complaining, just showing you my mindset these days). We(meaning mostly my husband) put many hours into building this house. We got tired and took a break to be a family again. Like I said it is still filled with laughter and friends often.

Family. Christmas was very mixed for me. I still miss my dad. I think about my mom down south for the winter. But getting together with family and friends is always good. Especially when it's with friends you haven't seen in ages and it still feels comfortable to sit and chat with them.

Doctors. This mostly pertains to my daughter and her learning disability." Hurry up and wait" comes to mind in this area. We have found some amazing doctors, I just wish they could be in the same province as us.

Food. I love feeding my family with good food...I just hate preparing it. We eat at home for almost every meal. It's partly a budget thing, but also my husband travels a lot and doesn't really want to go out after he has been on the road( or in the air) for a week. We are really trying to stay off convenience food, but with a busy hockey schedule and a husband travelling...it gets hard. Again don't take this as complaining.

You may have noticed I skipped one. I did that on purpose, because it is a doozy.

Clutter. I am a "what if" packer. What if I need this some day. It also comes from a budget standpoint. "What if I need this item and have thrown it away and then I need to go buy what I already had." I consider myself resourceful. I was brought up on recycling, finding uses for things that normally would of been thrown away. I guess Pinterest kinda fuels this. I am in no way near hoarding status. But this physical clutter is causing emotional clutter. I have all these projects I want to do, but no time. I see my old cross country skis and want to get out there, but no energy. I want to sew and create things but they are not my priority. I love my job. I am a mom. I love my kids. Seeing them happy brings me great joy. Seeing them grow and learn new things is awesome. They are my priority. This is my dream job. Everyone will tell you that even at your dream job there are gonna be bad days. I have those, every mom does. I would much rather be watching my kids skate than clean up the kitchen. Where my bad days come from is letting all this emotional clutter get in the way of my happy mom days. When I look at my messy kitchen and think," if I had shelves in my pantry then my stuff would be organized and then I wouldn't spend so much time cleaning up and more time doing stuff with/for my kids". When in reality does it matter? My kids don't care that I have stuff on my counter. Why do I let this clutter get to me? I am the only one judging me. I know I don't handle stress well, but when I think about it, it is me putting more stress on me. I am rounding the big 4-0 this summer. I have grown so much in the last 10 years. I am more secure in who I am than I was before 30. So a lot more does run off my back than it used to, but it seems to be my own junk that still gets me down.

So here are a new set of common words that I want to embrace.

Patience.
Grace.
Stillness.
Acceptance.
In the moment.